Hi, my name is Karen... and I'm a workaholic.
The first step is admitting you have a problem, right?
So, last weekend, I made the switch back to getting paid hourly again. I committed to working 58 hours this past week... I worked 74. I almost took Saturday off - I only worked 2 hrs. It's a start! I always had it in the back of my mind that my next check will still be 1/2 salary since we get paid every two weeks and I really wanted a good paycheck!
Today starts a new week... and I'm trying to hold myself to 60 hrs. Maxing out the OT is fine for awhile, but it's been a solid 6 months of this and I'm officially burned out, esp after that stint getting salary and basically working for free half the time. I need to get my priorities in order. Last year I put all my focus on getting rid of the physical clutter in my life. This year, I need to focus on me and break that habit of feeling like if there's the option to work more, I should. My savings account is healthy, my RV loan is paid up far in advance and I rarely shop for anything but food anymore. It's not like I need the extra money.
I've always been the type of person who doesn't want to let people down. That, honestly, was why it took me as long as it did to put in my resignation. I still can't figure out why so many stay in that position. I figured out pretty quickly that I'd made a huge mistake, but I kept hoping it would get better and I knew my resigning would increase the work load for a good friend. Ultimately, it came down to... I'm responsible for ME and I have to do what's best for ME. If someone else is choosing to work 100 hrs a week when they only get paid for 40, that's their choice and not my responsibility. Now, I need to convince myself that I'm not the only one they can rely on to get things done and that I don't have to always be available. I need to take a step back and learn to relax again. =)